The Yo-Yo

Do you know someone who always has a boyfriend or girlfriend? Me I never been that guy I mean I've had girlfriends but not all the time. But I think my reason for that is I just don't wanna get hurt again of love lost. So I think its best for me to share my story about a female who hurt me countless of times but I just couldn't let her go. Why you ask? It was never about the sex to be honest I've waited damn near 2 years for it. She was really the only girl who could keep my attention for more than an hour an still wanting more.

So our story begins in 2003 around the middle of September and am a junior in high school playing yu gi oh cards with friends (don't judge me) on a Friday evening when this girl with these glasses walks by and starts speaking to my best friend (my best friend is a female) and at that moment I was done. Ino people say love at first site but damn I was in like a lot a whole lot. One thing lead to another an me and "this girl" (I won't say her name because I don't want any beef) finally got together and to be honest she was my first girlfriend I really had.

She was young but she was kinda of mature for her age and I really didn't know any better. There were plenty of signs of trouble but none as big as when I seen she have a book bag pocket full of condoms and I still didn't even make it to third base with her. But me not knowing any better I let it ride until the night of the mark. Now I went from seeing my girlfriend from everyday to she'll catch me when she can. But this one night we were hanging with friends an it was kinda of cold out so everyone had coats on an long story short she had a Passion mark on her neck. So after that I broke it off an I was hurt am like damn I wasn't good enough for you but that's that..

Time went by and I haven't seen this girl for a while now its may of 2004 the day of my cousin prom. It's about a million people outside my aunts house but outta all the people there all I see is her standing there just looking at me but not looking at something that girls do. So I get the balls to walk over an say hi to "this girl" an just like that its like old time were laughing touching each other making out and BOOM the next day were back together. Few weeks fly by an were doing well but its was another girl who I knew that like me but I wasn't leading her on cause I had a girlfriend but she was kool but "this girl" didn't like her AT ALL. Now on this random summer night my girlfriend left and I needed someone to take out my hair so I ask this other girl to do it for me which I thought was no big deal an so she did. Now word got back to my girlfriend and she broke up me. I did nothing wrong all I did was get my hair taking out I never slept with the girl or really did anything else with her but she broke it off (But am not going to say later down the line they did fight on my block but you didn't hear it from me haha)

Damn near a whole years passes summer of 2005 now I have new girlfriend but things are very rocky with us. Now once again this girl is back in my life how she get there Idk. But now things are kool we both have grown up a bit an she know and accepts that I have a girlfriend. She becoming a great friend when my girlfriend at the time does something dumb an about a week later I had to let her go because she lost my trust. Now this girl has become a great friend in my time of need and I couldn't ask for more.

Time past an its the beginning of winter am in school and also working 2 job and this girl is working and is also in school and were hanging out more than ever so am like f it let's try this again and we both really believe this time will be different this time it will work. You know how in the beginning of a relationship everything is great cause its still new well our new stage never came about. Me am busting my ass working and going to school just got my first car trying to make everything work with us and outta the blue she's like "We need a break". Why I still haven't found out til this day. So during this break she just stop calling me responding to my texts hell she even but that she was single on bebo (yall don't know about that). Now am starting to get the hints but it still didn't hit me. Now Valentines day rolls around so I got her a few things even though we was still on this break I was trying to be a good boyfriend. But the same thing with her she won't pick up my phone call n she wouldn't answer my texts. This was getting out of hand its been damn near a mouth No nothing from this girl. I decided to call one more time before Valentines day was over. The phone ring and I heard a hello but it wasn't her voice it was a dude voice and in the back round I hear her voice cracking the fuck up and no lie I was like she got it.

My life was in shambles and no female could be trusted so I did what any guy would do in my situation fuck a whole bunch of women til the pain go away. I wasn't having fun females came an went outta my life had very good girls but I didn't treat them right so I broken a lot of hearts. All I could do was bust a nut no feelings no nothing. Kenell was no longer going to give his heart to any female again so all they knew was Nell Mac. I told them what they wanna hear but that's wear it stops. Until the summer of 2009 an guess who I seen on Ichat this girl. I had so many questions I needed answered so I could move on with my life. Why me? What did I do wrong? Do you still think about me? But when I hit her up all I could say was hi.

So yes I bitch up and we became kool once again But this time i knew who I was and I damn sure knew who she was. She came to visit me at work. We went out on a few dates hell we even mess around a few times an even with all that I had no feelings for her. I grew up and out grew her so I forgave her. I could no longer say she's the reason for me not wanting to give my heart up or keeping my guard up when it comes to females. Damn today that shit feels good.

It's been about a few mouth since I seen this girl but we didn't have anything to say to each and Ino will cross each other paths again but I wish her the best and thank her for helping me become the person I'm today. Sure its the road less traveled but it showed me the I became and now I'm glad of the person am I become..