Sorry in advance

Selfish,careless,emotion-less,disrespectful are just a few words I've been called over the years when it comes to my relationships with people. I can admit all these flaws still do effect my relationships now. An to be honest I just don't give a fuck and I'm sorry in advance. As you can see I'm not well put together emotionally and through the eye of a mac is my outlet to let people have a better understanding of who I am. My best friend says I have split personalitys. The person you see is Nell Mac this emotional-less rebel with so much anger and rage an don't give a fuck attitude who has no control of his actions. Since I've been given the name I notice a change in myself for the worse because it has created this character in my mind that went from being this childish name to a alter ego. Yea I might tune you out to get my point across or step on some toes to get what I want but Ino that's not me. I look back on my life I say I use to go outta my to do this I use handle things like this but than my ego jumps in and see things other wise. Maybe ill put it together someday so I can be the man I wanna be but until then Im sorry for the mess I created..