True Love

To this day i still cant let you go and i just refuse. Even in my dreams you wont let me live. Its been years you left me and i still cant let you go and still compare every others person to you. I still reminisce of day of us riding just for the hell of it. A love that could never could be match. I still love you even though you done move with a another. But you still find away to come back in my life. I still carry pictures of you around in my wallet and touch my lips remembering kiss we use to share. I love you cause you took care of a child that wasn't even yours but you treated them as the was your own. Even when I would get into all types of shit you was there to help me clean it up. My soul mate my first love even in death I refuse to let you go. If your reading this you might be thinking I'm talking about someone I lost but I'm talking about the love my mom still have for my step dad. Even in death she refuse to let another have her heart the way my pop had it and on her 51 birthday she still love this man like he still lives on 56 and race. Now that true love..

Remember The Days

2008 I miss those days.. Days when I was really happy. Days when ron was skinny and me and Kha we meet on call of duty and take over. Days When I thought $700 a week was real money. Days when I was the only person in my crew was over 21 and I had to buy liquor for my homies. Days when I was driving a green Lincoln with the sounds in it. Days when I use to think women was women instead of hoes or bitches. Days when my I was rank #13th in 2k9 for a week. Days when I use to ball out at the YMCA. Days when I use to goto eagles training camp with my brothers. Days when I thought nothing could slow me down. Days when I had a low cut with the waves looking like al B sure. Days when I thought 43rd St was the place to be on a Friday night. Days when my mom lived in west park. Days when a 09 dts and a 96 caprice was my dream cars. Days when I was the man to count on. Days when I had my life planned with a girl who I think to this day can't do no wrong. Days when I became a boss and refuse to take a loss.

Never Let Yall down..

Even though people might see me for who i am but in 6 eyes i could never do any wrong and thats why grind my ass of to make sure they'll be well taken care of. As you know I have only have one child but to those who know me personally know I have 3 little ones who owns my heart. When things are at its worse ino I can always count on them to say something that will make me smile or do something that will brighten up my day. A ten year old boy who is awkwardly shy loves everyone and remind me so much of myself you would had thought I had spit him out. My six year old princess that takes no shit from anyone but has the kindest heart and a one year whos still learning the world that can charm anyone with a crack of his smile. I've been bless to help mold these young minds to the leaders of the future. I pray every night that they'll never have to go through the mental stress I went through as a child but God put me in there life so they wont ever have to see that dark side of the world..

Waited

Lets be honest I'm young very attractive good paying job and anyone who knows me know that I love kids. But I would had never thought I would be a young father. Don't get me wrong I love my son he's my world I was even bless to give him my name but I just wish I could had waited a little longer. Does that make me less of a man? Personal no cause all the stuff I knew that was gonna happen happened. What I mean lets see baby mama drama Im not even with my sons mother I only can see him when its convenient for me child support and the list goes on. So I'm wrong for wanting to avoiding this situation? Hell No. But this what happen when you sell someone a dream a big mistake from being a player. Its to late to say I wish I had kept it in my pants only thing I can do now I take care of my responsibility and make the best of it. When I tell people about my situation they be like sign your rights over and I just sit back and laugh cause I'm not that type of person. I hate being a weekend parent I hate that my son will have to "Spend the night" at my house. The dumb shit that could had been avoided only if i waited.

A Letter To My Brother

Whats up big bro ,What it do lil man since im a only child i never got the chance to show you whats in my hand. Never got the chance to jock your style and steal your hats or tell you no when you ask to hold my caps. Never got to visit you when you went to college or call you make sure you cool and to drop some knowledge. No advice on how to talk to girls or telling you to open there doors cause that will rock there world. Will never get to hold your new car or give the keys for so you can stunt for a night. When its a problem I always know I could call on you and when problems come to you I'd be right by you. Can't celebrate with you on ya big 25 or when you turn 21 I'll have you in onyx saying this shit is to live. When my world gets to crazy give me some brotherly advice or when things get bad I'll show you some brotherly love. Never get to hold your first nephew or tell you to hold is neck before I kill you. Can't be be my best man at my wedding or say something stupid like "man look at all the hoes you gonna be missing. I really wish I wasnt writing this to a person who doesn't exist cause Ino the one thing we would have in common is not having common sense..

Friend Zone

People change- " I get that" People grow apart- " I realize that" As the times change people change I wish that wasn't the case. People who I would spend my days with I just don't fuck with and people who use to didn't play close now where closer than ever. At first I thought that they just didn't want to deal with me thats kool but the reason why still leaves a sour taste in my mouth. But friendships works 2 ways and at times I feel like I've out grown them on some levels. Now Im gonna sit here and act like i was the greatest friend cause i wasnt and in some cases I was more of a snake. But thats the past all i can do is work on the relationships I'm dealing with now.

Sorry for tha wait

Sorry for the wait but the king had to take a break. Alot of things have changed in my life and I really havent have the inspiration to write about anything but with the new chapters in my life I feel like time to come out of hibernation and throw some food on the table. Hope yall like.